Writer’s block… I have no words to describe how frustrating it is to stare at your screen for ten minutes, writing a sentence and erasing it, repeating this process over and over and over again, until you give and just turn to browsing your Facebook instead. But I’m sure I don’t have to explain it, since we’re all writers here.
I have little to no patience, with myself or with others. I didn’t pursue art, my first love, because I just couldn’t go through with completing a drawing I once started. My father says that I never finish what I’ve begun; that may be true, but the main problem are my expectations. I have an image in my head about how I want a sketch or an article to turn out. As I’m working on it, and I somehow get it in my head that it won’t reach my expectations, I just abandon it. I don’t try to work harder or start over, I just leave it and promise myself I’ll finish it another time.
This is why I have a dozen unfinished sketches in my book. This is why I have several drafts on my blog. This is why I have an un-finished novel posted on a website. This is why I have heaps of unfinished bracelets and earrings in my workbox.
This is also why I’m having trouble with writing the second part of my history lesson. There’s so much I want to say in it, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to. And that innate fear of being substandard, has me wanting to leave the project all-together.
Maybe a few days later, I’ll get a spark of inspiration and finally write about my kinsfolk and their history. Until then, off to other projects, and my sincerest apologies to those who were waiting for my article!